Beyonce and husband Jay Z are an intensely private couple. From the outside they give the perception of a very blessed life and the public are not privy to what goes on behind closed doors. And neither should they be.
All that changed the day footage was leaked of Beyonce’s sister Solange attacking Jay Z in an elevator after the Met Gala on May 5th 2014. The video shows Solange kicking and pushing Jay Z while yelling and screaming at him. The most telling part of this footage however is Beyonce. She does nothing to stop it- oh sure she tried once to stop her sister, but then she stepped to the side and let Solange do her thing.
Rumours of infidelity began with insiders saying that stylist Rachel Roy was at the centre of it all. And the reason Solange attacked Jay Z was because he was seen speaking to her at the Met Gala. The bond between sisters is nothing to be messed with as the grainy image clearly shows.
Now we have something that trumps that footage. Up until now Beyonce has not uttered a word in defence or against her husband.
With the release of her new album Lemonade (which was debuted on HBO with an hour long movie-style premiere of all the tracks) the whispers of infidelity have jut become a deafening roar.
The lyrics are honest and frank with the album reading as the chronological fallout of a partner’s infidelity. First there’s shock, anger, and then in this case acceptance, as the pair are seen to work things out and move forward.
Below are some of the lyrics from the tracks that seem to be an open attack and account of Beyonce and her feelings towards a cheating husband.
You be the judge? Is it all a publicity stunt or has Beyonce just announced her divorce?
Track 1: Pray You Catch Me
“You can taste the dishonesty / It’s all over your breath as you pass it off so cavalier …”
“What are you doing my love?”
“So what are you going to say at my funeral now that you’ve killed me? Here lies the body of the love of my life whose heart I broke without a gun to my head. Here lies the mother of my children both *living and dead. Rest in peace, my true love, who I took for granted.”
* Children both living and dead could be the couple’s four-year-old daughter, Blue Ivy, and Beyonce’s earlier miscarriage.
Track 2: Hold Up
“I smell your secret, and I’m not too perfect
To ever feel this worthless
How did it come down to this?
Going through your call list
I don’t wanna lose my pride, but I’ma f**k me up a bitch
Know that I kept it sexy, and know I kept it fun
There’s something that I’m missing, maybe my head for one”
“What’s worse, lookin’ jealous or crazy?
Or like being walked all over lately,
I’d rather be crazy”
“Let’s imagine for a moment that you never made a name for yourself
Or mastered wealth, they had you labelled as a king
Never made it out the cage, still out there movin’ in them streets
Never had the baddest woman in the game up in your sheets
Would they be down to ride?”
“You remind me of my father, a magician … able to exist in two places at once. In the tradition of men in my blood, you come home at 3am and lie to me. What are you hiding? The past and the future merge to meet us here. What luck. What a f**king curse.”
“Ashes to ashes, dust to side chicks.”
Track 3: Don’t Hurt Yourself
“Who the f**k do you think I am?
You ain’t married to no average bitch boy
And keep your money, I got my own
Get a bigger smile on my face, being alone”
“I smell that fragrance on your Louie V boy
Just give my fat ass a big kiss boy
Tonight I’m f**king up all your s**t boy”
“This is your final warning
You know I give you life
If you try this s**t again
You gon’ lose your wife …”
At this point in the film, Beyonce takes off her wedding ring and throws it at the camera.
Track 4: Sorry
“Headed to the club, I ain’t thinking ‘bout you
Suck on my b***s, I had enough”
“Now you want to say you’re sorry
Now you want to call me crying
Now I’m the one that’s lying
And I don’t feel bad about it
It’s exactly what you get”
“Looking at my watch, he shoulda been home
Today I regret the night I put that ring on
He always got them f***ing excuses
I pray to the Lord you reveal what his truth is
I left a note in the hallway
By the time you read it, I’ll be far away
“Suicide before you see this tear fall down my eyes
Me and my baby, we gon’ be alright
We gon’ live a good life”
“He only want me when I’m not there
He better call Becky with the good hair”
“I tried to change, closed my mouth more, tried to be softer, prettier, less awake… but still inside me, coiled deep, was the need to know…are you cheating on me?”
Track 7: Daddy Lessons
“My daddy warned me about men like you
He said baby girl he’s playing you
Cause when trouble comes in town
And men like me come around
Oh, my daddy said shoot”
Track 8: Love Drought
“Ten times out of nine, I know you’re lying
But nine times outta ten, I know you’re trying
So I’m trying to be fair”
“Are you aware you’re my lifeline, are you tryna kill me?”
“I always paid attention, been devoted — tell me, what did I do wrong?”
Track 9: Sandcastles
“Dishes smashed on my counter from our last encounter
Pictures snatched out the frame
Bitch, I scratched out your name and your face
What is it about you that I can’t erase, baby?”
“And your heart is broken cause I walked away
And I know I promised that I couldn’t stay
Every promise don’t work out that way”
Track 10: Forward
“It’s time to listen, it’s time to fight
Now we can be open for a while
Go back to your sleep in your favourite spot just next to me”
Track 11: All Night
“Found the truth beneath your lies
And true love never has to hide
I’ve seen your scars and kissed your crime”
“They say true love’s the greatest weapon
To win the war caused by pain
But every diamond has imperfections
But my love’s too pure to watch it chip away
Oh nothing real can be threatened
With every tear came redemption
And my torturer became a remedy”
And the final lyric, before Formation completely changes the topic as an album closer:
“How I missed you, my love.”
Photos courtesy of Google Images Lyrics from Lemonade.