Tammin Sursok is the 33 year old Australian actress who is perhaps best known for her role as Dani Sutherland on Home and Away. The talented performer now resides in LA with her husband and daughter where she is forging a successful career in television. Tammin has appeared in a string of successful shows including Pretty Little Liars.
It’s hard to imagine that the stunning brunette ever felt like she wasn’t good enough. With her gorgeous smile and bright sparkling eyes she is definitely a stunner in every sense of the word. Yet there was a time when this gorgeous young woman felt anything but attractive. Growing up Tammin was overweight and was bullied and teased because of it. She often felt like she wasn’t good enough and would cry herself to sleep because of it.
The actress and mum has penned a letter to that young, overweight girl telling her everything will be okay. If only we all had the power to go back and tell ourselves not to worry so much, that in the end none of it really matters. I would tell my younger self that my big bushy eyebrows will one day be much sought after. That my acne will definitely clear up. To not try and please others before I please myself. I would tell the little me that you are perfect as you are.
Have a read of Tammin’s heartfelt letter and just try not to shed a tear or two.
DEAR 13-year-old Tammin,
Hi, It’s me, your future self. I’m standing on the sideline looking back at your ripe, fleshy, hopeful face and I know what’s about to happen.
The boy standing in front of you will break you. He will break your heart in ways you never thought possible.
He will embarrass you as you feel the stares of awkward prepubescent males all stifling a hearty laugh. You will feel the chambers of your heart beat out of your chest as the blood dizzies around every cell of your body.
For what you were waiting for, what keeps you up each night in desperate, feverish anticipation, is not what the boy in front of you feels.
Not only does he not have any giddy interest in you, but he will verbalise in front of everyone that you are indeed “FAT” and after he miniaturises you, he will parade away. And you will feel like the lights just blasted and you are standing on a stage, naked, in all your quarter pounder glory.
I can see you right now at the swimming carnival. The white cotton in your purple swimsuit stretches and moans as you fight to get it over your shoulders. You’d do anything to never swim again.
You watch the unblemished swim team glide past, as if carved out of medieval stone, their bodies fly like gazelles as they dive into the frigid water.
Now it’s your turn. The room is deafening. The faces around you start to blur and decolour and you feel like you are a passenger on a haunted hayride, that is your life.
You dive. Well, you try. You try to dive. Your body can’t propel you high enough so you falter, you slip and you fall. Hitting the water so hard that you feel like your body has been stung by a team of the Hamilton Island jelly fish.
As you come up for disorientated air, all you hear is the muffled chuckles and with all eyes on you. You have become the punchline, once again.
I see that girl. She will spend your school years antagonising you, she will make it her duty to beat you down, trying to suck from a straw any self respect you might have.
Distracting herself with you will deflect the self loathing she feels, but you won’t know that just yet.
Not only will she steal your first real love but she will celebrate it, mocking you mercilessly until the only thing that can rock you to sleep is the monotonous sound of your own cries.
But one day things will change. You will change.
After enough friction and discord and abrasion, a fire will spark in you. A fire that will burn uncontrollably.
You will hear a voice, buried in other people’s opinions and words bathed in hate, that will rise like a Phoenix. You will name your first child this, to remind her that out of adversity she will forever reign.
Your body will change, not because you are mimicking perfection, but because you will regard it as a vessel that needs to be treated with respect. A figure that will ultimately swell and magnify as it carries your unborn child.
You will realise that the malevolence towards you was from people who were struggling. Struggling in their own sense of self worth.
You will realise unhappiness is the most powerful pipeline to hate.
Things won’t happen overnight, you won’t feel resilient right away, most of the time you will walk through your life feeling stuck.
But I’m here, standing on the sidelines, looking at you, my 13-year-old self and I want you to know you’re going to be more than OK.
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